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holding this old book?

May 6th, 2007 (05:27 am)
current song: Heart Shaped Box--Rockabye Baby!

turning it over and over in my hands.

I haven't looked at it in a very long time.

STONE,
PAPER,
KNIFE


Marge Piercy.

I see the night I spilled the rum.........when Steven and I were talking.

There is a coffee stain, not the ring it could have been........

wow

As I spun the pages through my hands......
there was a break, something tucked inside.

Two pay stubs.

Only...they are hand written.

okay, am crying.

I see my raise.
Two slips, is that why I saved them in this book?

5.25 an hour, to 5.75

John and Kenny.
They met in San Francisco.
20 years.......before I met them.

how they made it to North Austin, to open a coffee shop
I will never know.

But I was their ONE employee.

And between February and March.....
John gave me another 50 cents an hour.
I am holding the hand written pay stubs in my hand.
now.

I loved John.
He was the Glue--Kenny was the shiny one of the two of them....
*laughing*

Kenny......When he turned 50, I gave him the anniversary Zippo.
He'd tell me later I had put too much fluid in it and he got a burn (back pocket)
on his ass......But this was the man who always told me to PUT MY MOUTH ON!

And I still do, red red red lips.

I was 23, and these were the first people who lived differently than I had been
raised......that I ever really knew up close and personal.

My world CRACKED open after this...........
But here, with these two men?

John gave me a Christmas bonus.
It was 30 dollars.

okay...crying again


That 30 dollars meant--the world to me.
Still does.
They didn't have it, and I
I was 23 and it was amazing.

wow at what a little drunk girl can find in a book she hasn't opened in forever?

I made $175.88 a week.
Back then.

I worked for people I loved
and believed in.

It isn't as pure today...............
And I won't get a Christmas Bonus.

But I haven't fallen far from the frame.

I still work for a couple who has weathered the world,
and kept pace.

I still work for two people in love.

What better energy to strap yourself to.......
I don't know?

(man, I make that in a night now!--really I wish you could see these stubs)

oh
my
god


Hang the hat.

John was putting towards medical?
I am looking at this old old piece of paper.

Ginger is crying again.

Comments

Posted by: keishiko (keishiko)
Posted at: May 6th, 2007 12:57 pm (UTC)

i'm so glad i have you on my flist! ♥

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: May 6th, 2007 08:03 pm (UTC)
Kadiddy Kitty

Me too!

(and to think, I owe it all to Kadiddy Kitty)

Posted by: Public Joy Killing Birthday Gang (bloodlossgirl)
Posted at: May 6th, 2007 03:55 pm (UTC)
happy

I heart you Ginger!

I bet you didn't know that I also love Marge Piercy, and in particular, Stone, Paper, Knife

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: May 6th, 2007 08:04 pm (UTC)

I rarely meet people who even know who she IS....
let alone are familiar with her out of print work.

*grins*

I heart you too.

Posted by: dabroots (dabroots)
Posted at: May 7th, 2007 11:22 pm (UTC)

I've been getting all sad, too.

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