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Sorry no word in a while...

August 30th, 2006 (06:42 am)

I just haven't been feeling it.

It is so much more complicated living in a house.

Found out yesterday I had neglected to get the gas turned over in my name...
and it was due to be shut off tomorrow which would have taken about three days
to get turned on again.

Fortunately our LandLords gave us a heads up, and after a PMS fueled crying jag
I was able to figure it all out. A nice man named Julio, helped me on the phone after
a 15 minute hold.

Schedules have made seeing the Boy near impossible.
I am ready to have a sit down with management at work and see if something can be
done...even if only for a few weeks, so I can reconnect with my Love.

As all the bills are coming due from our move in, the BIGGES...
we are finding our cash flow cinched at the throat.
This is not adding good fuel to our situation.
I keep realising there will be more and more larger bills than I had first thought.

Everything...
Is much more complicated these days.

My body has responded to my mistreatment by delivering another kidney infection...
I haven't had a cup of coffee or a soft drink or a HARD drink since Saturday.
Water water and more water...
The pain compounded of course, by cramps.

Oh, the joy.

Eleven days on my allergy meds and the best I can claim is that it has caused my
reaction to the pet dander to go underground. I don't sneeze or drip, I simply have a
sore throat and ears and headache--constantly. Even hours after getting away from the
house.

I feel estranged.
My head is never quite clear and it is getting to me...
I had hoped all this calm sobriety would help somehow.
That there would be a plus to my kidney ordeal.

I am just as unable to connect.
More so now, I suppose.......as I am a different sort of lucid.

I miss him.

Comments

Posted by: a (ohchicken)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 12:06 pm (UTC)
daddy's little girl

i love you. you should scoot over to our new house today.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 09:36 pm (UTC)
Dazzler

Oh Annie!

i cannot WAIT to see it...

Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 09:41 pm (UTC)

New house? already? Wow!

Posted by: Coffee Shop Whore (skidspoppe)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 03:23 pm (UTC)

I wish I were there.

I could do more than send empty words through the ether.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 09:37 pm (UTC)
Explodex's Ginger

Your words are never empty, Jaq.

Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 03:31 pm (UTC)
paper crane

You'll figure it out.

Nobody said it would be easy, but the good things never are.

Pick something you can fix, and do it, no matter how small. Even if it's putting a few books on the right shelf. Or putting a little mirror next to your blinky box. Reflect on the things that are already good. And just keep moving.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 09:38 pm (UTC)
Climb

I must get over this...illness.
I cannot move.

You are right of course...very much so.

I just need to get better, take care of myself...
So I can take care of us.

Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 09:40 pm (UTC)
paper crane

I just need to get better, take care of myself...
So I can take care of us.

Both of you need to get better, so BOTH of you can take care of each other.

Posted by: Pumping Iron Hearts (woundedmarigold)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 07:13 pm (UTC)
Unlock the door
emo

I'll be thinking of you Ginger.

Everything will fall into place...it always does.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: August 30th, 2006 09:39 pm (UTC)
Re: Unlock the door
Spirited Away

Thanks, Drozd.

You are right of course...

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