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August 22nd, 2006 (02:57 am)

Ben was asleep in the den when I got home tonight.
With the fuzzy ones.
Available to them, as they find themselves here.
It made my heart thump hard.

I pulled off my helmet as Maggie jumped up to greet me.
I couldn't help laughing, it was cool.

I've always had such hard feelings for dogs, and their blind joy
at seeing their...People.

I guess, I guess I've never been one of their people before.

After a long night at work, having someone so excited about my return was...
I petted her hard on her side like I see people do, told her she was a good dog.

*laughing*

This is all so new to me.

A whole new culture.

Ben got tucked into our bed in our room....
Door closed against fuzzies.
And I found myself telling Maggie about my day.
She was FASCINATED by it all.

I poured some food into her bowl (it was empty and Kaditty still had some, I don't know
Ben--was that wrong? Maybe I am trying to make friends.) she ate and looked back at
me and listened to my night.

I'm only a little itchy.

Coffee is set for the morning, a BIG pot, because he and I will both be drinking it.
I'll be up in 6 hours, for my next shift.

That isn't so bad....if I can make myself sleep.

I can't take any benadryl--as I am on Claritin now....
That is going to be hard.
My head is already filling with fluids...
throat sore and swelling, eyes burning.
It will be several days before the chemicals start to do their thing in my body properly.

I'll jump the gun and pop one in the morning--rather than wait until 2 PM for it to be 24
hours. I was an edgy little waitress tonight. Fought with most of the staff. Broke and
apologised several times. Frank, the manager tonight told me it was fine, he had nights
like that too.

The kitchen just howled at me--it was Matthew and Sam.....
They took turns punching my buttons, good sport.
*laughs*

Yeah--weird.
I am going to LIVE on this chemical now.
Every day, like a birth control pill.
(something I have never had the stomach for)

Weird.

*looks at Maggie*

I think it will be worth it.
If I am not hospitalised in three weeks..........
Ben and I have a chance of making this work.

And a chance is all I can ask for now.
My home is a biohazard to me.......I am ill equipped for it.
I have never ever fought my natural weaknesses, and won before.

Technology...SCIENCE!
I have more tools now???
Weapons????

And there's that whole.........LOVE thing.

*smirks*

Pray for the girl and her new dog and her new cat.

I have so much to learn here.
So many directions to grow.

That they both follow me to the bathroom
is going to take
some getting used to.
Kaditty chews on the wrapping
of the new toilet paper
and looks at me like I am an alien.
Maggie sits obediently at my feet
and listens to me tinkle.

Wow.

I have pets.

Comments

Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: August 22nd, 2006 02:35 pm (UTC)
paper crane

It's funny to watch you changing into something... more. I always knew you could, if you'd let yourself. Go go G-chan.

Posted by: a (ohchicken)
Posted at: August 23rd, 2006 11:10 am (UTC)
fambly

nobody says it like you my dear.

Posted by: Laurie A (chevrefeuilles)
Posted at: August 26th, 2006 02:31 am (UTC)
amused

you're a member of a pack now!

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