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Sunday Sunday Sunday.

August 20th, 2006 (03:18 pm)

I have finally caught up on my sleep.
I almost feel sane again.

I work tonight, nearly to close.
Needed to get my sleep cycle turned around...

Ben spent the day in the yard with a borrowed mower and edger,
bags and bags and bags of leaves and clippings and dust.
The sidewalk is actually entirely visible now!
It looks like a real yard.

He's been at it since this morning, he seems quite pleased with himself,
it's nice to see him smiling...all sweaty and shirtless and filthy
proudly looking out across his domain.


He went and got me a house key, a FLAME TRICKED house key
and on Wednesday when I am off I will
go to the DPS and get a new license...
maybe even a new library card?
*weak smile*
I'm not sure how I will get a new Social Security Card...
that part of my legal universe is still in limbo, still unsolved.
I'm listed as Ginger Lynn Copeland and haven't the proper paperwork
to get another one in EITHER name right now.


I haven't lost a wallet in years and years...
I feel so naked.
At least my work is a CASH NIGHTLY kinda gig,
I don't have to worry about cashing checks or getting into an account.

The Dog and the Cat come home tonight.
The second stage of this adventure begins in ernest.

Trying to keep my chin up and be brave.
Not doing a really good job at this point.

It will all work out, somehow it will all work out.
Amidst my panic attacks and flashes of doubt, I will have to find my way.

I knew this wouldn't be easy, I knew this would be work...
I just didn't count on so many things going wrong at the same time.

I should focus on getting my study together, to have a room of my own to go to
and be surrounded by familiar touch stones. It is simply piled with books right now.
Difficult to even walk through.

The look on his face when I walked out and saw the yard he had been working on
so hard all day.... I need that sort of project. To look around at something
accomplished. I've been a ball of nerves all week, extra work, strange hours...
sleep deprived and stressed out.

It hasn't been good for either of us.

It will get better, we will get the hang of this...


Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: August 21st, 2006 03:55 am (UTC)



*big grin*

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