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First Contact Today With New Landlady...

June 12th, 2006 (04:45 pm)

Well sorta, we're still playing phone tag.
I left my info on her machine...

It's funny...Ben has the good job,
I have the immaculate long term rental history...
Together we are the perfect risk!

*GRINS*

I want that HOUSE!!!
if we don't get it, i won't be crushed...I know
what ever happens, it will work out.

BUT I WANT THAT HOUSE!

*laughing*

I am so ready for it.
Imagine...throwing a dinner party where everyone has a place to sit???

I mean I've done OK with just this:


(my whole space)

(Mom & Pop & friends Stan & Patrick, Thanksgiving '03)

(Me in my tiny kitchen with an ELECTRIC stove *ack*)

For six and a half years...

But I'm ready for more.
I am soooo very ready, for much MORE.

I want to lay in a hammock in that back yard, curled up with my Benjamin
looking up at that huge sycamore...
I want to mow the lawn!
Live next door to neighbors...with yards and families and...

Standing on the front stoop that afternoon the first thing I spouted
from all the things bubbling inside me was: OOOH! TRICK OR TREATERS!!!

Ben laughed, and hugged me.

I know I know I know....
none of this sounds like me.
But doesn't it???

I mean--those of you who have known me for years...
I have made my little microcosm into a miniature of this.
I just did it alone, and I did it in a cramped 300 square foot flat
on the 3rd floor.

I have always been afraid to reach for more, afraid of failure, afraid of the responsibility.
Ever the little bachelorette COMPLETELY in charge of her surroundings.
Control, through minimalism.

I know myself now. I am a woman in her soon to be late thirties...
I am a whole person, with a knowledge of what I want and do not want
that I have never had before.

I've found what I want.
I have found WHO I want.
We've both weathered our own difficulties, and are not blind to the difficulties ahead.
We strike a balance--one that will require constant maintenance...

I've known this man for a long time, he's known me.
We both have seen each other at our best...and at our very worst.
We both know, what we are both capable of.

But when it all comes down to how and why I am able to make a leap like this...
after an adult life of avoiding it???

Dude.
I just look at him, he smiles, and my heart knows.
I just Know.

Comments

Posted by: Prufrock's Peach (bluemamie)
Posted at: June 12th, 2006 11:18 pm (UTC)

what an exciting turn your life is taking...shacking up is tons of fun. i highly recommend it!
;)

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 08:07 am (UTC)
Oh yeah...Lex

You two have certainly been an inspiration...



*GRINS*

Posted by: lolliejean (lolliejean)
Posted at: June 12th, 2006 11:23 pm (UTC)

Sweet. : )

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 08:08 am (UTC)
Tuxedo Sam

Nauseatingly So!!!

*laughing*

Posted by: Gregory Parks (tokenpants)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 04:05 am (UTC)

Wow! Continued congrats for your state of being. I can't even imagine anything like this happening in my life right now. I'd like it eventually, but I'm not stressing (at this time.) Amazing how things just jar into place sometimes, isn't it? Sometimes it takes an earthquake.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 08:09 am (UTC)
Giggle

Or a trip to San Francisco...*giggles*

Posted by: beyond the gray skies (8s_and_aces)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 04:18 am (UTC)

mmmm shacking up; sounds so romantic when expressed like that. *laughing*
your apartment looks so clean in those pictures! wow!

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 08:10 am (UTC)
Catwoman

Quiet You!

(See...I can be tidy!)

Posted by: Jenny (woodwhat)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 05:12 am (UTC)
Woo!

Ooh! And he's cute to boot!

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 08:11 am (UTC)
Boy Of Steel

*hee*

I KNOW, huh???

^_^

Posted by: hairypolack (hairypolack)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 06:51 am (UTC)

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

dont be too pissed at that pic

Ive got a present coming your way!

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 08:12 am (UTC)

Okay, now THAT'S funny!

(I'm less sensetive now that I've lost the weight, heh.)

Posted by: Coffee Shop Whore (skidspoppe)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 07:45 am (UTC)

And you know what? We KNOW, too!

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 08:14 am (UTC)
Disophy1 Grin

Mmmm....Blessing from BOTH Bill and Jaq.

I must be doing the right thing.

*smiles*

Posted by: Disophy (disophy1)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 11:14 am (UTC)
Dude!

What's with the Dell shirt!!! This can't go on....it just can't!

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 01:15 pm (UTC)
Re: Dude!
Disophy1 Grin

HE WORKS FOR DELL, DUDE!!!

Posted by: Disophy (disophy1)
Posted at: June 13th, 2006 03:35 pm (UTC)
Re: Dude!

Now he hasn't worked there for long has he? Surely we can save him from the dark side. Tell me there's hope........

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 14th, 2006 11:26 am (UTC)
Re: Dude!
GIR and Pig

*opens her bag, looks inside*

Yup!

Hope.

don't know if it's the brand you speak of....

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