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Bell is ringing out my open window....

May 30th, 2006 (08:41 pm)

The EIS man.

He's pushing his cart around the lower stories of the building I live in.
The bell jingle-jingles like a wind chime.

It's a real bell.

I wish he had EIS....or ice cream in there, in his cart.
Everything is packaged.

The best part removed, the least part remains....
but yeah, I love the bell.

BRB
Must buy something.


I made it down the stairs, and looked and looked, followed a few children
and finally asked a guy walking his dog with a friendly look on his face......

I missed him.
The guy said.
Just barely, he said.

He eyed me in my half pulled on clothes...
barefooted in a beater and jeans falling off my hips.

"It's all about the ice cream man" I said.
Yes it is. he said. And smiled.

I walked to the edge of the complex where I live, and looked up and down the street.
No bell.

Like he just disappeared.

My door is open, and I hear a woman scream:
Why can't you be a fucking MAN, WHY can't you be a FUCKING MAN!????

the door slams three times.
It takes a lot of anger
to slam a door
THREE times.

I live in a place full of Life.
Wrong side of the tracks.
Love to hear the train at night...
Behind a Target?

Shopping carts litter our parking lot.

I call it home. It is my Home.

I checked to make sure it wasn't my friend........
I walked outside.
It wasn't Mary.

I would have...well, I don't know what I would have done
it wasn't her. I was poised.
I would have taken her here.

Poured her a drink she didn't need....
and supported her. The way I support.
*head in hands*

But it wasn't her, thankfully.
And I cannot tell any more than the bell of the EIS man, where she is.


This does feel like home.
Come January....it will be 7 years in a 300 sq foot efficiency flat.

6 managers and countless neighbors.

G just wants a Home.
WITHOUT RESPONSIBILITY.
Fix my shit, and let me make cookies for the nieghbor kids.

I will be involveded, when I want to.

Ring my Bell.

Comments

Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: May 31st, 2006 02:10 am (UTC)
chinese bear

*jingle*

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: May 31st, 2006 03:56 am (UTC)
Dog

Nice.

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