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Hump Day...?

April 27th, 2006 (02:53 am)

It's still...settling in around me. The idea, of being free again. Whole.

Got in early this afternoon for my 4 PM shift, got the go ahead to clock in, and started
cleaning up the areas that I use, I guess that's strange. It wasn't busy, I didn't have a
table yet--I set stuff up the way I like stuff...full. Clean.

Shot the shit with the kitchen guys, filled the ice and lemons and did a sweep of the
patio for glasses and just to look around, the air was cool and brite. The patio almost
empty.

I had my power socks on, red black and white stripes.
Fuzzy. Capri jeans and my "GO FORWARD" Christopher Reeve Foundation Superman
Dog Tag swinging between my breasts just beneath the top of my Opal's Tank.

I stood at the computer by the main wait station and clicked through the screens,
looking at the new table numbers that have just been initiated. (yay! Now we are all on
the same page! All of us starting from scratch.) Laura looked at me, I was staring out
the huge front windows with a silly look on my face... I smiled at her. Our new manager
who has been making this a more convenient place to do what we do. Making it more
stream-lined, logical.

I wanted to tell her what I was thinking--but it would sound too weird.

Do you ever just stop, and scan your brain...you know there is SOMETHING you are
supposed to be worried about? There is ALWAYS something to be worried about...


But there wasn't. I was standing there, looking out these HUGE plate windows onto a
perfect blue Austin sky, 78 degrees...a couple of clouds for good measure. I have a great
relationship with my folks, my family, my bills are paid, I am feeling more healthy and
looking more healthy than I have in ages, I have close friends who care about me...

I am loved, I am satisfied. I have purpose.

I could not, as I scanned and scanned my brain...find anything to be unhappy about.
And I hadn't even had my coffee yet.

*sigh*

What do you DO with something like that???


Yes.

I know.

I will crash, I will find the little things again, I will even create them...for worry.
But even if only until the end of April...
Even if only for NOW.

What a bliss.

When the simple things have been so hard for so long--and suddenly they are
supplied?

People.
I bought the GOOD toilet paper the other day--pennies I haven't squandered for a year.
I really...umm. I really LIKE the good toilet paper, though I swore there was no need for
it. I didn't even know I misssssssed the GOOD toilet paper~ *HAHAHAHAHAHA*

It's nice to live simply.
When something, ANYTHING, pleasant happens to you--it feels like a party!

Hurray!!!

I can go where I want to go, do what I want to do, ME and THELONIOUS--we get
around! I'm me. A better me. A little more tested, a little more grateful.

Entirely ready, for NEXT.

Oh yeah, 5 miles tonight on a 6 hour shift--well over a bill.
^_^
God I love this job.

Comments

Posted by: Organizational Anarchist (napalmgod)
Posted at: April 27th, 2006 02:22 pm (UTC)

What's "The good toilet paper"?

For that matter, what does "5 miles tonite on a 6 hour shift - well over a bill" mean?

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: April 27th, 2006 06:42 pm (UTC)

my odometer I've been wearing, even though it was a shorter shift
than the one I worked when I walked 6 miles--I walked five last night.

I made over a hundred dollars.

You've never waited tables???

Posted by: Organizational Anarchist (napalmgod)
Posted at: April 27th, 2006 09:51 pm (UTC)

Nope.

I worked for two weeks at a Burger King if that counts.

Posted by: madravenstark (madravenstark)
Posted at: April 28th, 2006 07:04 am (UTC)

oh, the joy you are missing. unless youre a people person like ginger, in which case, you really are missing out.

i'll stick to working on peoples' cars for now, thanks.

Corvin

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