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The Salmon of Doubt

December 29th, 2005 (10:20 pm)

I have been writing on paper.

Have had no desire to come here.

I've been keeping my stories to myself.

Maybe something broke, when I hit my head.



The first few pages were sloppy.....held the pen
but could not control it.

Paper, no lines, a heavy instrument filled with black ink.

Mont Blanc Starwalker--and a well bound blank page.



This has been a difficult year.
I will not be sad to see it close.


Each page I fill and turn, my hand returns a little more.
Cramped fingers that punch at buttons remember how to hold
a pen.

Sweep a line, alone.
No stage.



Jaq, the book...........your present.
I checked it out several times
from the Library
read and read and reread it--
but never read the end.

The part that was actually The Salmon of Doubt.

I saved that part.
For when I owned the book.

I knew once I read it, I would HAVE to own the book.

DNA did not let me down.
He left me swinging...

Breathing hard, and swinging.

His Friends made me cry, as they finished the book for him...
But DNA left me exactly where I needed to be, yesterday.

Completely and entirely aware that all that I have done to get to this place,
to be here, to be Me--is a happy happy accident. An incredibly articulated
collection of coincidences that lead to a life of amazing joy and adventure.

I am not a failure.
I am simply a Ginger.

Somehow, for whatever reason............
Things work out for me.

The account keeps getting filled,
the red haired strangers keep me following............

Every time I open my bag, everything I need is there.
For next.

Thor thunders and crushes packets of crisps
and cats are half found.

I pay attention to road signs, though I do not drive.

I have known of Desmond, and I have met with Desmond.

Tucked in my paper journal is a fortune-cookie slip of paper that reads:
The night life is for you.

I just pasted it above the two that sit front and center on the mirror before me
that read: You create your own stage. The Audience is waiting.
and You will be fortunate in everything you put your hands on.

Silly stuff.


Off to the right there is one that reads: You love the thrill of showmanship
and display.


Oh!
I do.

But I'm no Rhino.

A Rhino--now that's something!

The Salmon of Doubt

I now know I was right.
It took a nudge.

What I have been doing, the stuff that has made me?

Good Stuff.

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Comments

Posted by: Public Joy Killing Birthday Gang (bloodlossgirl)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 04:36 am (UTC)

Random rocks

So do you. :)

Posted by: omaha (omaha)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 04:59 am (UTC)



i've joined this community...needed more encouragement to write more often....

i had a small journal that i used on a trip with my mom...that i intended to send to you, and still might...'cause you make me want to write.....

Posted by: Pumping Iron Hearts (woundedmarigold)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 08:01 am (UTC)
emo

I don't have very much to say these days. Sometimes I think we go through the same emotions at the same time...

All I have is a simple *head nod*.

Posted by: a (ohchicken)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 08:36 am (UTC)

...go see what i made you over at my page. teehee.

you are beautiful and gracious (if not always graceful--it's overrated anyhow) and i so adore you.

ex
oh

Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 04:27 pm (UTC)
Hey! I know that scooter!
twoheadbunny twoheads

Okay, and the girl too ;)

Nice piccies.

Posted by: hairypolack (hairypolack)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 09:10 am (UTC)

I wondered where youve been. So did Katie- we were gonna start a search party.

Posted by: barry_barry (barry_barry)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 04:28 pm (UTC)
bunny suit bunnysuit

I've been hiding her in my basement. Okay, not really. I did hide her in Waxahachie for a while though. She escaped with the help of the wardens though.

Posted by: emily (tugena13)
Posted at: December 30th, 2005 03:40 pm (UTC)

i've missed you!

also, i've decided to adopt you as my big sister. hope ya don't mind. :)

Posted by: EasyReader (mummra)
Posted at: January 2nd, 2006 08:03 am (UTC)
death

Salmon of Doubt was terrific. But I'd probably say that about anything DNA wrote, even if it were terrible. But Salmon of doubt was pretty great.
His death was really unfair. Of all the people.
Have you read or heard "Last Chance to See"? It was originally a BBC radio series, but I think they also made a book out of it, though I couldn't reccomend buying or downloading the audio verison enough. That probably should have been more than one sentence. Anyway, if you don't know it, it is about some time Douglas spent travelling to places to see endangered and for the most part all but extinct animals. It's brilliant.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: January 2nd, 2006 09:52 pm (UTC)

YES YES YES--I have been looking for that book, it was mentioned in 'Doubt
and it sounded brilliant!

Posted by: EasyReader (mummra)
Posted at: January 4th, 2006 02:55 am (UTC)

On a side note, I don't know if you like audiobooks or not, but hearing Douglas read his books is kind of great. He's a good reader, for a writer.

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