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Trying to trick myself into a normal schedule...

June 20th, 2005 (05:57 am)
current song: The Letter R and the Number 10!

I dose myself with benedryl at a reasonable "bedtime".
Only to wake up as the drug wears off at 2 AM.


So I lay there tossing
and worry with my beads:

Unemployment, my references, my busted scooter,
my nest egg, the fact that a lost wallet some time back
has left me with nothing but an old SS card that claims
I am still Ginger Lynn Copeland (my married name of 15 years ago)...
Where is my birth certificate? How do I get a new one?

I have no degree...
No credit...
And nothing but a Texas Driver's License
and a 20 year old expired Passport, as identification.

I barely exist.

The person I thought I would
Spend my life with--
turned and walked away three months ago
with little to no explanation.

I am less than three months
from my 35th Birthday.

I turn on the TV to drown out the noise in my head.
American Masters is coming on PBS.
Julia! America's Favorite Chef...

She....she was AMAZING.
And you know...she didn't even begin to know what she wanted
to do with her life--until she was my age.
She was Party-Girl with very little direction--for YEARS!

She was not afraid...of making mistakes.

Her two great loves, Cooking and Paul Child...were not even MET
until she was in her Thirties.

I feel less lost suddenly.
My spark coaxed back to glow....
with this simple documentary.

A reminder of Hope and Beauty and Life and Love...and FOOD!

Something not too terribly rare, on my favourite TV station.

It has come to my attention this week that House appropriators have proposed
more than $220 million in crippling funding cuts for public broadcasting
in the new fiscal year. Proposed funding cuts as severe as these –
representing 45% of federal financial support –
are nothing less than a direct attack on the future of public television and radio.
The proposed cuts constitute at least malicious wounding,
if not the outright attempted murder of public broadcasting in America.

More info and 'What can you Do?'

I'm off to write my own letters.........
I have "intended to" all week.
Now, I am profoundly reminded that I MUST.

Thank-you PBS and NPR!!!


Posted by: stuck up, half-witted, scruffy-looking nerf-herder (433)
Posted at: June 20th, 2005 12:27 pm (UTC)

I assume it's similar in Austin, but what we do to get a new birth certificate is go down to the City Hall to the Service Center (where you get marriage licenses, etc.) and give them your driver's license and tell them your birthdate and the name of the city or town you were born in. They can look it up and give you one. Here it's about $25.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 20th, 2005 12:33 pm (UTC)


Posted by: Our Lady of Perpetual Meanderings (twistedcat)
Posted at: June 20th, 2005 06:17 pm (UTC)

you might try valerian root instead of benadryl, it's more natural and wears off more slowly as well. just don't take it for more thaan 2 weeks straight, it builds up in your system and your body will get unhappy.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: June 20th, 2005 07:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks Pretty Kitty....

But we're in the throws of "second bloom" here anyway...
My allergies alone will generally justify my little pink pills.

I just have to use them sparingly so they don't stop working
when I need to actually STOP a more life threatening attack.

But I will pop in and ask my favourite herbalist at CM,
Craig, about a "sample"!


Posted by: Our Lady of Perpetual Meanderings (twistedcat)
Posted at: June 20th, 2005 07:57 pm (UTC)
Re: Thanks Pretty Kitty....

i also find that sublingual vitamin b12 works wonders on allergies like hayfever, you might want to try that in addition to the benadryl...


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