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Oddly enough...my greatest challenge, as an Adult:

April 5th, 2005 (11:55 pm)

Has been how to keep that much raw alcohol down, without purging.
While....... maintaining a conversation.
(And now... able to type.)

I'm good at it now.
So Good.




WILDLY enough...

I always thought it was going to be SPELLING.







Hmm.

Life is Strange like that.


Folks.
I woke up in a cold sweat this morning.
Full Blown Panic Attack.

I guess that's what it was--I've heard them described.

My dreams are getting to me.
So's the Boy.

I've failed, something horrid.

I thought I was happy.

Someone--someone very much involved with that happiness.....

Told me, He wasn't.

And suddenly.

BAM!

We're both, not.


I can't wrap my head around it.
And it would REALLY help if one of you would call when you KNOW
I'm at WORK....
and leave me a message.

Because the last one is from him.
And every time I come home, I push PLAY.

Even though I know.....

HE tells me he's got my Catwoman comics back from Steven, and my Mixer...
n'stuff....
and that I should "call back, some time"

RIGHT.

Yeah...

I push play. a lot.....after I'm in no condition....to call him back.
He's got THREE drunk dials out of me....

I
HAVE
BECOME........

every man I have ever dumped.

I HAVE BECOME.........
that
person
that makes
themselves

Loathsome .

*head in hands*

Not a lot of pity, when I cry:
I'VE NEVER BEEN DUMPED BEFORE!!!!!

*head in hands on knees*

my god.
this sucks.
i suck.
i did this to
other
people.


I'm leaving this BAD BOY open....
just in case any of them are watching.

YES.


YES.


She has finally gotten her OWN.

*Crack* the Zippo, and light the cigarette.
SHE gets it.



IT's making me crazy, and eating my stomach.
I can't eat
I can't sleep...
And I just don't understand.



Boys.
Here ya Go.

One of yours, got me back.

Somebody Ring a fucking Bell.

Comments

Posted by: I used to go like that now I go like this (doctorgogol)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 05:04 am (UTC)

Ring-a-ding-ding.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 05:25 am (UTC)
Hey....
Black Cat Burns

You're s'posed to be in BED!

*grins*

Posted by: EasyReader (mummra)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 05:27 am (UTC)

I really wish I could say something. But nothing comes to mind.
Oooga boooga.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 05:30 am (UTC)
Swallow

That'll Do.

Posted by: Pumping Iron Hearts (woundedmarigold)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 05:47 am (UTC)
emo

I've never called "the ones" while drunk dialing.

Mine's worse and hella weak--I blocked my calls, and sat on the other line in silence while they repeatedly said Hello, hello...hey man, fuck you!

Or something along those lines...

I'd end up crying alone in the dark.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 06:39 am (UTC)
Tankgirl

Ain't this fun.

Posted by: Pumping Iron Hearts (woundedmarigold)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 07:01 am (UTC)
emo

Eh...

Posted by: Glenn (gev)
Posted at: April 6th, 2005 09:07 am (UTC)
clanging bells?

nah.

just...  nah.

revenge may be served best cold,
but some times it's just no fun.
or even less than fun.
terrible even.

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