it was Soooooo hard.
Crawl into the bathroom, shower, slick my hair back...
pack a lunch, take my vitamins.....
Make it to the bus stop on time, smoke a cigarette
and stare uneasily at the overcast sky...
I feel horrid, sad, lonely....TIRED.
I board my bus
and pull out my schedule
for the day--to see who I'll be working with.
I am a closer tonight.
Could have slept
for HOURS more.
*BANGS HEAD IN FISTS*
Going to crash again now--
and start the miserable process
all over again
in 2 and a half hours.