April 1st, 2005

The Sisters


Don't be the one in the room that has the least faith in you. Anais Nin, remember her? "The world expands or contracts according to one's courage." You've yet to flex your muscles. I'm very glad to hear that NEXT has takens root in your vocabulary. Let go of anything that is holding you back now. If it has value for you in a future context you already have the skills to retrieve it blindfolded in it's darkest black alley mancover. Swing free from the bound, now bound where? Your door echoes your freedom. Yonder mountain, nearest valley. What's the echo within when you say within, "I believe"? Where's the ripple? Venture forth. Where are you bound.


Hey, Chas--I sat outside tonight under a just-rained dark Austin sky, on my break.
The air was clean enough to drink.

I had my jewelry in my ears.
U2 playing their count down to New Years, 1990.
And those streets...........with no name.

I was watching the traffic pass, on wet street.
Gloss black, under the lights of the EXXON across the way........

I turned it up LOUD and sang along.

They were screaming about the FUTURE.

The FUTURE...in 1990.

I raised my hands in the air........
I shouted.
I laughed and loved them and loved

Every U2 song.......
Is about YOU.


The FUTURE.......

You've been telling me I wasn't "flexing my muscle"
since the day we met--When a boy took me on a date
to the bar where you were tending.......

The rest is History.
Who knows where Andrew is now........


I moved in with you two weeks later.

*laughing and laughing*

We bought furniture.
A Table even.

I wanted it when I left........12 years ago.
You offered it to me, last year.

*still laughing*

I didn't have room.
Believe me, if I HAD.......I would have taken it--just
for posterity.

*grins again*

The Johnny Cash photo...........
now THAT's what I still want.

*bends down an holds her ankles*


But Chip, and YOU, Win.
I'll just have to lie about it...........

*knocks your shoulder, and brandishes her MONT BLANC*

You've left me with more words than I can write.
I love love love love love You.

I'll write my book--You bastard.
And You'll be on the first page.

(Yiddi--listen not to what I say, He's a Saint.)

*Laughs Harder*

My GOD--I am looking forward to your Wedding.

Yiddi--I love him.
YOU love him.
Will you?
He's difficult--but worth it.


One of my favourite Humans.

Kieth, BE GOOD TO HER....
or I'll kick your ass.

The Ginger has spoken.


Selma, Alabama......Grows Beautiful Flowers in the Spring

This time last year.........
I'd buried my last Grandparent.

I was driven to Waxahachie by Patrick Kelly.
In a 57 Chevy wagon.

My Pop thanked Him, in his pajamas.
One more Goodwill Mission, from my Cop.

Two men of Uniform, giving nods.

At 0 dark thirty.


Hell broke loose in Iraq, while I was in Alabama.

I had no computer.

skidspoppe looked up zutroy for me--
on the phone.

No word.

I was sick with grief.

It was Spring and I was surrounded by Death.

I came home to Mr Smith.
He and my Mother share a Birthday.

April 15th.

The day you pay or get paid.

I decided to be HAPPY.

Lots of stuff happened after that.
A Year.

I think there are photo's.........
mostly, just ink and sweat.

Too-Mamas, I miss You.
You were mean and perfect.
You were my Mother's Mother.

You didn't raise the woman
who raised me.
She rose alone.

And gave me all my thorns,

And all my books.

I love You.


Too-Mamas........I thought of You, today.
When the rain was falling and the sun was shining.

YOU said: When the sun is shining, and the rain is falling--
The Devil is beating his wife with a Frying pan.

I still don't know what that MEANS.


But I miss You.

Thanks for my MOM.
I need her.


Chip here, at the controls......

There comes a time when a man has to live life according to principle
and not by public opinion. I've had 11+ wonderful years at LOVEJOYS.
I've always done things my way, keeping the needs of my community at
the top of my list of my priorities. And that is how I would like to
remember LOVEJOYS.

We're now living in an era where certain people want to dictate what
consenting adults do when they get together. These people don't think
you guys are smart enough to make your own social decisions. They feel
a need to protect you and make your decisions for you. Where does it
stop? Today they're telling you that second-hand smoke is killing you
and that you shouldn't be allowed to smoke in a bar. They also want to
set up roadblocks and accuse every motorist of driving while
intoxicated, making you prove that you are not impaired to continue on.
Is this Nazi Germany? What will they decide is in your best interest
next? Maybe they'll decide that no person should be allowed to consume
any more than two beers per day, for your own safety. Whatever it is,
I'm not going to stick around to see.

I'm closing the doors at LOVEJOYS at midnight tonight. A man has got
to do what a man has to do.

April Fools!

House Beers on tap:

TUESDAY, APRIL 5th: Join us for a special Maredsous Promotion, with

ART IS CHANGING: Steve McGhee's photos will be coming down over the
weekend. If anyone would like to take one home, they can be purchased
for a very reasonable donation to the Handsome Joel Foundation
Patrick Mayes will be our featured artist for April. His opening
reception will take place Sunday, April 10th at 7pm.

Sorry if I scared you with my little April Fool's prank. But think
about it folks... How many of you are going to just sit around while
other people decide what is best for you? Not this guy.....



You Fucker.
Scared the shit our of me.....
and I thought I was ready
for all the Shinanagans..........April Fooled SOLID!!!

(btw, Chip Tait took the Photo in my Icon....
Waaaaaaaay back in 1995--*grin*
It's my favourite picture of me, Eva.)


I'm skinny again.


I was just dancing around in the mirror
to F 'Oldin' Money by The Fall....
and realised I could see my ribs again.

The PAIN diet works...but I don't recommend it.
It involves a lot of Vodka and Cigarettes.

*shakes her hips*

Still......I look Goooooooooood!


*wiggle wiggle hop hop barefooted*

I'm going out with the Gals tonight....my ohchicken and her loverly "H".
We're gonna see SIN CITY at the NEW ALAMO South.......
They're bringing along "A Friend"...


Greg is very nice, Says the Chicken.


I'm being set up,
aren't I.




I love my Friends.


I got an *LJ FRIEND FIRST SIGHTING* Last night!!!!

sdx showed up at my SBUX and leant me a cool book about VAMPIRES!



I got a bear hug I needed too...



Wow--Sarah, this was too COOL.

Birthplace:Fort Dix NJ
Current Location:Austin MUTHA FUCKIN Texas
Eye Color:Hazel--
Hair Color:Black
Height:5' 2"
Right Handed or Left Handed:Born Left--Trained Right
Your Heritage:I choose the Pop side--Norweigen.
The Shoes You Wore Today:Still barefoot.
Your Weakness:Joy.
Your Fears:Joy.
Your Perfect Pizza:Tomatoes and spinach and garlic...Feta please.
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:Have a Running Scooter.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:>_<
Thoughts First Waking Up:Is this really where I live?
Your Best Physical Feature:My ass.
Your Bedtime:6 AM
Your Most Missed Memory:Okinawa, at the Sea Wall.....waves.
Pepsi or Coke:Dude. COKE.
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger King--Like the veggie burger.
Single or Group Dates:Single--C'mon.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Nestea Plunge!!!
Chocolate or Vanilla:Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee:Coffee *giggles*
Do you Smoke:Hell Yeah.
Do you Swear:Hell Yeah.
Do you Sing:Baddly--but often.
Do you Shower Daily:No.
Have you Been in Love:Yes.
Do you want to go to College:Yes.
Do you want to get Married:No.
Do you belive in yourself:Yes.
Do you get Motion Sickness:Actually...yeah, I've started to...always made fun of my mom...Odd.
Do you think you are Attractive:I'm HOT.
Are you a Health Freak:Not-so-much-ish
Do you get along with your Parents:Yes.
Do you like Thunderstorms:Love Them.
Do you play an Instrument:I have a Hand Drum...I dust it.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:HAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAA!!!!
In the past month have you Smoked:Yes.
In the past month have you been on Drugs:No.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:Um...I dunno.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:No.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:UGH! no.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:Yes.
In the past month have you been on Stage:Heh. Sorta.
In the past month have you been Dumped:>_<
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:Ooooh--That's what I need.......
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:Um....Yes.
Ever been Drunk:Yes.
Ever been called a Tease:No.
Ever been Beaten up:Yes. Ex husband--see EX. Done and Done.
Ever Shoplifted:*sigh* Yes...and I still cringe thinking about it. The guilt remains after 20 years.
How do you want to Die:Standing Up.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:A Teacher.
What country would you most like to Visit:Japan, I wanna go home.....Okinawa. It isn't Japan.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:Brown.
Favourite Hair Color:Black.
Short or Long Hair:Short.
Height:6 feet...+
Best Clothing Style:Jeans and a white T-shirt.
Number of Drugs I have taken:Three? Four? I didn't try any until I was 25...haven't tried many since.
Number of CDs I own:50? Not many...
Number of Piercings:I took my earings out years ago....But I still have 5 holes. The first two when I was 7 years old.
Number of Tattoos:None. Ink is hot, but it's not for me.
Number of things in my Past I Regret:All the Bricks--Built me. Unicorns never regret.


Thanks to woundedmarigold.

Crap. I'm Tired....

I think I will make a bad impression tonight.

Glad it will be DARK where we're going....
And a story will be told without any need for me to contribute.


I'm in my skinny cuffed Levi jeans, and a thermal, and my X-MEN baby T
that a boy who doesn't talk to me anymore gave me for Christmas
a few years ago.

Don' t know what shoes to wear.

The little "Girl Scouts" who come around with their Mom, just knocked on my door.
I bought three lolly pops for my Friends tonight--paid for six.

I'm such a sucker.


I think the lights in my window give me away......

The proceeds are going to someone...I think.
Somebody sick.
Or maybe EVERYBODY sick.
I dunno.

They're cute.
And their mom is nice.

I called Mr Smith and left a rambling message....


I'm playing the 5 mix CD's he gave me....in tandem.

HE had vision.

*laughs all empty 'n stuff*

Going out to see a cool movie.
With Cool Friends.

Going to have fun--maybe even meet an LJ friend I've never seen before.

*waves to jefftom*

Wait--DID we meet?

I need a life coach.