I can't sleep.
So I'll tell you about what scares me
when I'm ignoring my real fears...
Daniel Tiger bought me a gift. Something he thought....
was whimsical. Here, he said on IM, let me show you!
and video chat began... he raised the book.
I think that is exactly what not only my eyes and face,
but my mouth, said
when he showed me.
I really don't have a poker face, my Mother will tell you that.
I knew what it was.
I knew he had gotten it from someone who had made it from scratch.
Each page, the spine.....the entire piece.
River Song's BOOK.
I was supposed to, and SHOULD have been...THRILLED.
Dead eyes, clinched sphincter, heart pounding...
i think that is what I mustered for the video chat,
in the moment after I expelled the word: SHIT.
I don't think that was what he was going for.
I also know....my Daniel Tiger.
I cannot ever write a single word in THAT.
but thank you.
*head in hands*
I'm afraid of it, Daniel.
Hand made paper sewn together along a spine bound.....
to the blue box.
Someone made it out of love, someone bought it for good purpose.
Ginger, just write a few spoilers. Set dates and tell yourself the story.
Did you know this would frighten me so?
No, no I just bought you something I thought you would use,
something to make you smile.
It's the good kind of scary.
Yeah, I did know that.
You shake me when I need it most. By the shoulders. You look me in the eyes.
Just write. Just a few spoilers. You're tiny, but you're bigger on the inside.
Just a few spoilers...