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Cassandra, my darling...You Always Speak The Truth.

February 23rd, 2007 (10:44 pm)

The little bouncing orb at the bottom of my screen popped up again just a few moments ago.
My computer offering me an opportunity, to Service her. I used to be afraid
when that happened--I would put too much inside her,
slow her down
make her too fat
make getting around, too difficult for her.

I have learned slowly, what I need to click on and what I do not.

Cassandra was a gift.
A Birthday Present.
She was used...but most all gals are better fit to traverse this 'Verse,
when they have been.

zutroy brought her to me...in a canvas courier bag.
Pulled her slim silver self out--and set her down in front of my wide eyes.
She looked so...complicated.
But so beautiful.

A PowerBook G4.

Peter was dying. My first computer. The PC TOSHIBA laptop my Father had given me
for my 30th Birthday, 2000--and asked me to JOIN THE UNIVERSE!

Peter was not long for this world, on his second hard drive, and several keys dead
because 'Mary Jane' spilled red wine on his keyboard. And water. Twice.

(Thank you to the Heroes: angrystan, eastland and elitistbill
who saved him for me, each time.)

*head in hands*

(not unlike the caskets in THE HUNGER--I still have his first hard drive, MAX ((headroom)),
kept safe and in a quiet place. Peter is laid to rest as well, still with me. Always.)

After years of coming to terms with a place I knew nothing about--AT ALL
struggling with the language, in the most simple ways...
(None of my travels prepared me for this language)

zutroy handed me........the APPLE.
I kept it, looked at it for days and days, afraid of it.
Rubbed at its shiny silver skin.

And then
I ATE IT.

WHOLE.

And suddenly.................I wasn't naked anymore.

*BEAMS*

She had a NAME.
My computer was a girl.

It was, I think, the moment I first clicked on something and dragged it over and let go....
AND IT STUCK, OPENED WHOLE???

I knew who she was.

I said it loudly aloud, laughing, on impulse--so I knew it was her name:

Oh Cassandra! I have been fighting you for so long!!!

she was easy.
and true.

Zut had given her to me, to keep me online.
Where he and I had met.......during a very difficult time.

You see, I was unemployed in Austin, and well--he was being shot at.



*head in hands laughing*

We've known each other for several years now....
I would wager he knows parts of me
better--than even elitistbill.

My best Friend of 20 years.
My first Love.
My deflowering Eagle Scout.

*laughs and rubs her temples and tugs at her spit curls*

Technology, and Communication.

I don't understand this machine I use.
It now understands.
Understands enough to take care of itself when I cannot.

It is a big flat silver
PHONE.
LIBRARY.
TELEVISION.

BAR.



Little Hoo-Ha pops up, and asks me if it can take care of
itself.

Sure.......sure why not.
*click*
Do it.
I'll watch the numbers spin by, and wait until it is my turn
to turn Cassandra over--and ON again.

TRUTH is a dodgy thing, there are so many.

But a girl who cannot bring herself to "JOIN THE UNIVERSE"
as Father desired, lo these near 7 years ago?

Zut brought me the perfect partner.

Wonderful Fruit...
from the Tree that taught me
to discern between
good
*laughing*
and evil.

I've no interest in the TREE OF LIFE in this context,

Evil being, empty ignorance.
Good........well, Good being: ABLE TO USE THE DAMN THING!!!


*HOWLS WITH LAUGHTER*

7 years later and I have a community that literally wraps the Globe.
Friends.

Thank-you Zutroy.
You gave me more than I could have imagined.
I think you knew what you were doing.

Birthday Presents........

eastland--Thelonious is getting used. Used well, even through
breaking down, and getting fixed, and becoming the 'extra scooter'
And allllll the Drama that ensued with Frances???

Someone who needs him very much
is using him. Thelonious is supposed to BE here.
I'm sharing the energy you gave me.

He is still mine, he will always be mine.
I could never sell him--I will never sell him.
There may be a point.....where I give him away,
but I will never sell him.

And Cassandra?
Well, she flies the ship.

CAN'T STOP THE SIGNAL.



She'll probably die before Thelonious does.
And I will put her next to MAX and Peter.

They aren't baggage.

What they leave behind is not even as large as an Urn.

And what they gave me, is THE WORLD.

*grins to herself*

I was born at exactly the right Time.

Comments

Posted by: Coffee Shop Whore (skidspoppe)
Posted at: February 24th, 2007 05:01 am (UTC)
Time

Sure...you're online now...but have you voted for me yet?

I'm just trying to win a little (contest here.

Tell your friends. I only need two more votes to pull into the lead.

Posted by: Zutroy (zutroy)
Posted at: February 24th, 2007 02:38 pm (UTC)
Floppy Hat

You're very welcome, Tiny Ginger. I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: February 24th, 2007 09:35 pm (UTC)
Antid0te's

Tiny-Ginger-Full-oF-Spiders......HUGS YOU HARD.

Posted by: sleightgirl (sleightgirl)
Posted at: February 24th, 2007 03:31 pm (UTC)

Mine's named Dellilah...she's a Dell after all.

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: February 24th, 2007 09:37 pm (UTC)
Cowgirl G

Does she cut hair well?

^_^

Posted by: sleightgirl (sleightgirl)
Posted at: February 25th, 2007 04:08 am (UTC)
sarchasm

No, but I think she might have cheated on Tom Jones...

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: February 25th, 2007 07:03 am (UTC)
Pinky

you got me square in the goggles with
THAT
subreference.

Do tell?

Posted by: sleightgirl (sleightgirl)
Posted at: February 25th, 2007 03:51 pm (UTC)
World of my Own

Tom Jones has a song called Delilah...It's all about him coming over to her house to find her cheating on him...

"My, my, my Delilah,
Why, why, why? Delilah,
And so before I come and break down the door,
Forgive me Delilah I just couldn't take any more."

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