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Drifting Further to the Dark Side...

April 20th, 2008 (12:26 pm)

Sunday off and I am going over my finances.
Finances???

Still a bit odd, all of this business with numbers and accounts,
to a girl who pretty much banked out of a Betty Boop lunch box her entire adult life
until now.

So I have set up my USAA checking account as of today
to pay my phone and internet bill with at&t...

wow.
I know that doesn't sound like much to you Cyber-Jockeys
but that used to be a big errand for me!
Either get on the bus to an HEB (our local grocery chain) and stand in line
with my cash in hand...
Or buy money orders when I cashed my checks at the MONEY BOX
for rent/electric/water/phone
and buy stamps...
and mail them off.

It could take an afternoon back in the day, just to get my bills paid!

But now I have a car...
I have a savings and checking account and a little piece of plastic
that looks like a MASTERCARD.

*laughing*

I am trying to embrace the ease with which things can now be accomplished.
But I am noticing... I have a lot more bills now.

::grins::

Just started paying my own car insurance (Thank you Folks, Pop and Mum, for taking
care of that these months while I got on my feet--and of course...for Trooper
the evil beast in question. That gift changed my whole life.) and I have a monthly bill
of $100 a month now-on-through-eternity for my head-hole surgery...

And then of course the regular bills of phone and electric, and rent...
The TREE HOUSE also went up a $100 in my absence. What doesn't?

My total outpouring of cash in the old days of the Tree House was around
oh... $650 total? That was rent and all bills.

I am trying not to do the math now, because it is scary.
I'm up near a grand a month--and I really have no idea from month to month
what my income will be. I'm a waitress.

I was never scared before because I never looked at my income or my bills
in any way other than THE MOMENT. I picked up shifts when I needed to, and I
spent money when I had it in my hands...on all the ginger adventures I wanted.

I just let the tide take me, and took care of things as they surfaced.
My Savings was a small roll of hundreds shoved in a lunch box
on a shelf in my kitchen...next to Maw-Maw's 1945 Sunbeam Mixer!

I am glad, that I am evolving.
It feels good.
As I am quickly closing in on 40 now...perhaps I should look a bit farther
than the end of my nose.

I see the numbers now, I have notice.
I have the tools with which to compose my attack.
It is good to look at the big picture, and see it differently.
To learn about COMMITMENT.
I was never-so-very-much-good at that sort of thing.

*smirk and sigh*

Still....
I do miss the tides, they had such an organic feel to them.
Like everything happened by magic? No plans? Nothing was known...
I lasted longer than most, in that world.

Of that, I can be proud as well.

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Posted by: thelisteningman (thelisteningman)
Posted at: April 20th, 2008 08:01 pm (UTC)

oh, i would love to see you embrace "capitalism" and open a stock portfolio next! that would be... hm. is there a word that best describes what that would be in Gingerverse?

Corvin

Posted by: Red Lipstick & Green Ink (ginger931)
Posted at: April 20th, 2008 09:45 pm (UTC)
Achieved

TRAGIC.

*laughs and laughs and laughs*

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